Encounters: Collapsing Inside

By Erin

I just drove past the city cemetery and was reminded of a poignant, heartbreaking moment I happened to be privy to earlier this summer at that same spot on Texas Ave. Driving by the cemetery that day, I happened to look right and saw an older man with unkempt hair sitting on a bench outside a gravestone store across from the cemetery, his head in his hands, his shoulders heaving with sobs. And I zipped by at 65 mph.

I thought about turning around, but didn’t want to intrude on his grief. I wondered about the person he loved and how and when that person had died. I wondered then–and again today–if I should have gone back.  

There are so many broken hearts around us. The weight of our shared humanity is felt, sometimes more sensitively than other times, at least for me. And I know all too well what it feels like to be collapsing inside while a bright smile is plastered on the outside. And I am glad for people who have found me in such moments–and glad too for privacy when I needed it. Sometimes being alone is what’s needed.  

So I thought of that weeping man just now. I hope he has found some peace.

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